It's early hours of the morning and I can't sleep. At first I panicked, until I remembered that I don't have to sleep if I don't want to. I can be awake. And so I am. Googling 'how to survive a divorce', because I think this is where I am heading.
I deleted a blog where I had an ugly rant about Mr Husband and I feel better now that I've done that. People that air their dirty laundry have always made me squirm - I came close to doing the same. Yuk.
I think of my mother when my parents got divorced. She was a lot younger than I am now and had 4 very young children. My brother was in fact only 2 when the divorce went through.
I don't know that I am made of the stuff my mother is made of. She's a proper dignified lady, she is. She doesn't let anger get the better of her, making her scream and shout and swear.
I'm worried I might go to pieces and behave badly. I need to take deep breaths and KEEP CALM AND CARRY ON. Actually I am so sick and tired of hearing that, I could scream.
But right now, I suppose there really isn't anything else to do, except to keep calm and bloody well carry on.